Welcome to The Pause, dear friend. Come on in and make yourself comfortable.
I’m coming to you fresh off of Jazzy’s first trip to Disneyland and it was everything I’d hoped it’d be and more. To watch her experience magic was something I haven’t quite found the words for just yet.. give me a few weeks and I may have something more substantial to say besides, “It was magical… I mean, just wow.”
As more life experiences accrue at a more frequent pace, I’m feeling a thawing happening—a warmth from the inside—that I’d love to take a moment and acknowledge with you.
Settle in, take a deep breath, and get ready to pause in 3…2…1…
🧊 Thawing
I feel myself thawing.
Little by little. Moment by moment. Experience by experience. I feel myself thawing.
It’s the little moments that have brought me back to life—slowly melting away the years of feeling lonely and disconnected.
It’s singing with perfect strangers at concerts. Swapping stories with my local grocer about our daughters. Grabbing coffee and going for a walk with a friend.
It’s attending playground meet-ups with families from my daughter’s school. Connecting with people I love over a meal. Going out with Kevin and grabbing an after-dinner beverage.
It’s meeting new people and sharing who I’ve become these past few years. Feeling excited to be back in San Francisco after a weekend away. Sharing new experiences with Jazzy and watching them blow her mind.
These seemingly ordinary moments summed together produce an extraordinary effect. Like that story of ice complaining about not melting when it’s 20 degrees, 21 degrees, 22 degrees, and so on and so forth until finally, finally, at 32 degrees it happens. The ice finally starts to feel the change. It finally starts to melt.
Today I finally feel it. Slowly but surely. Little by little. I’m not just alive, but I feel alive. Connected. Plugged in. On. I feel different. The warmth that felt lost is finally emanating from inside again, and all I want to do today is acknowledge it. To bow down to it. To pause and say thank you for it.
I am grateful to finally feel this way again—to finally feel the thawing—and I hope if this resonates with you you can give yourself a moment to pause and feel grateful for it, too.
⏸ Pause & Reconnect
**Get curious. Have fun. There are no right or wrong answers; just what’s true for you.**
Do you feel yourself thawing? In what ways?
What are a few seemingly ordinary moments in your everyday life that you really appreciate? How do they help you feel alive?
Happy Halloween my friends. Wishing you an evening filled with king-size candy bars and the feeling of being alive.
Until next time. 🖤
~ L